Too late (14.06.2013)

Last night we danced under the stars

But heaven was down here

And we laughed without aching scars

Your words are all I still hear

"My love, my heart, I'll never let you go,

But I guess you already know .. "

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And now I cry for the love of my life

I thought I had the strength to be your wife

Oh dear, why are your lips so cold?

You never heard these words I always told

'cause it was already too late

Oh, it's still too late

Last night I kissed away your tears

But the certainty stayed

And I was left with a thousand fears

but I threw away my blade

my love, my heart, what about tomorrow?

Because I will never follow

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And now I cry for the love of my life

I thought I had the strength to be your wife

Oh dear, why are your lips so cold?

You never heard these words I always told

'cause it was Already Too Late

Oh, it's still too late

Now the last candle goes out

And leaves me alone with the burning scars

But that's alright, I still can find out

And remember as we danced under the stars

Chorus:

And now I cry for the love of my life

I thought I had the strength to be your wife

Oh dear, why are your lips so cold?

You never heard these words I always told

'cause it was Already Too Late

Oh, it's still too late

Time to to (12.8.2013)

When I met you, I didn't know how strong this would be

But my heart was too blind and locked itself in love

And it felt like it could be something great, but I wasn't free

They said it feels like on cloud nine, but I, I was above

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You were always someone who made me smile

And I couldn't believe it when it didn't stop rolling

But fear was still there, even if there were no tears to cry

I never found out who you really were, but that didn't bother me

Until now, because now it's time to go

I'm sorry, but I never learned to fight, even if it is hopeless

And to see how much I missed, broke my heart

You won't even notice that I'm gone, and I thank you for this

'Cause this time you won't make it hard

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You were always someone who made me cry

And I couldn't believe it when it didn't stop rolling

And fear was still there even if you made me smile

I never found out who you really were, but that didn't bother me

Until now, because now it's time to go

For this love was just too painful

Hopeless and almost impossible to stop

For this love was just too wonderful

Without ever one good reason to stop

For this love was just too hopeless

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You were always someone who made me fly

And I couldn't believe it when it didn't stop rolling

And fear was still there even if there were no tears to cry

I never found out who you really were, but that didn't bother me

Until now, because now it's time to go

For this love was just to unique to show..

Inspiration (10.8.2013)

Du bist meine Sehnsucht, meine Angst

In der Dunkelheit wenn kein Licht mehr scheint

Und der Himmel laut mit mir weint..

Du bist mein Schmerz, meine Gewissheit

In der Nacht wenn ich dich verlass'

Und dort nichts mehr bleibt als Hass..

Doch du bist meine Liebe, mein Herz

Und du lebst mit dieser Intensität

Als hätte man dich auserwählt...

Und du bist meine Feder, meine Inspiration

Ein kleine Melodie, ein leiser Klang

Der Grund ,warum ich meine Feder schwang...

Healing love 10.8.2013

When I'm dreaming there's just you and me

Holding me in your arms, I am not free

A shame that we had to wait

Please, don't let it be too late

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It could be so exciting, a healing love

Don't think I don't care what others say

But this love lies so good on my way

Oh it could be so peaceful, a healing fight

You don't know me, I can be merciless

And I take revenge if you ever hurt me heartless

But it could be so beautiful, a healing love

When I remember how you make me feel

Oh, I never thought my heart could heal

I wish you weren't a heartbreaker

'Cause I'm Ms. Bad boy hater

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It could be so exciting, a healing love

Don't think I don't care what others say

But this love lies so good on my way

Oh it could be so peaceful, healing a fight

You don't know me, I can be merciless

And I take revenge if you ever hurt me heartless

But it could be so wonderful, a healing love

When I'm thinking there's just me and just you

Still holding me in your arms, you are so cruel

But I won't be your victim anymore

So keep holding, I could close the door

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It could be so exciting, a healing love

Don't think I don't care what others say

But this love lies so good on my way

Oh it could be so peaceful, a healing fight

You don't know me, I can be merciless

And I take revenge if you ever hurt me heartless

But it could be so truthful, a healing love

No choice (08.08.2013)

I had a choice and I knew there was only one side

I wish I could cross the road towards the light

But there are chains around my heart

And they just don't break apart

I don't play this game with you,

because these rules are made ​​by you

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Now I'm taking thousand steps backwards

Delete the memory until there is nothing left

Because I can't stand that the last time is already over

Burn my heart until the love has gone

But I'll never be able to forgive 'cause everything is done

Now I'm taking thousand steps backwards

Because I had no choice

I had a choice and I knew there was only the wrong side

And I wish I could leave the lies, if I take a flight

But my cage is made of titanium

I'm sorry, but I hate what we've become

I couldn't talk, couldn't shout out

But what if I'm not strong enough to get out

Chorus:

Now I'm taking thousand steps backwards

Delete the memory until there is nothing left

Because I can't stand that the last time is already over

Burn my heart until the love has gone

But I'll never be able to forgive 'cause everything is done

Now I'm taking thousand steps backwards

Because I had no choice

And I'm playing this game as if I was destined for

Just to make you happy,

And I'm losing, as it would be all I expected

Just to calm you down

But woe to me if I ever dare to fight

"Don't forget that you are an outgoing light.."

Chorus:

Now I'm taking thousand steps backwards

Delete the memory until there is nothing left

Because I can't stand that the last time is already over

Burn my heart until the love has gone

But I'll never be able to forgive 'cause everything is done

Now I'm taking thousand steps backwards

Because I never had a choice...

Die (6.8.2013)

Nightmares haunting me and I can't escape, not here

The Moon takes off, maybe I should stay awake tonight

And I'm screaming and crying when I wake up in fear

But no one understands that all I need is a little light

A little light in the dark so That I won't break apart

Chorus:

It's like mental suicide without ever wanting to

I had to look deep inside of me to find out

And all I saw was a bloody, scarred heart

These memories can hurt like blades

But this life is like poison in my veins

And the worst of all I can't die

I wish someone would be there and would listen

but nobody promises that they will stay forever

I can't wait anymore, it feels like lifelong in prison

Lately dream world and reality are bound together

But dreamworld can't be like the realworld

Chorus:

It's like mentally suicide without ever wanting to

I had to look deep inside of me to find out

And all I saw was a bloody scarred heart

These memories can hurt like blades

But this life is like poison in my veins

And the strangest of all, I can die twice

all I can do is to write and write

And hope that you will listen one day

This life isn't wasted, not even when I cried

I'm sorry but I won't die, not today

Chorus:

It's like mentally suicide without ever wanting to

I had to look deep inside of me to find out

And all I saw was a bloody scarred heart

These memories can hurt like blades

But this life is like poison in my veins

And the best of all, I don't want die...

Always a different pain (4.8.2013)

This love is so wrong, but I can't go, can't grow

This love is deadly,I can't breathe, can't leave

And when the nightmares come back to me

And thoughts about blades won't ever leave me

I stay, 'cause there's no place to go, no wave to flow

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It's always a different pain

It's always the same Shame

I'm breathing with a hole inside

I wish it would kill me for all time

Maybe I really should go,

But what will fill this hole?

This pain appears a thousand times, on a thousand lines

This pain is killing me inside, but I'm breathing on the outside

And when the ghosts are done with me

And still don't want to release me

I stay, 'cause there's still a spark, still light in the dark

Chorus:

It's always a different pain

It's always the same Shame

I'm breathing with a hole inside

I wish it would kill me for all time

Maybe I really Should Go,

But what will fill this hole?

Tell me how can you love without pain

Show me how can you love without blame

There's no way back to a silent shade

And no getting around the blade

Chorus:

It's always a different pain

It's always the same Shame

I'm breathing with a hole inside

I wish it would kill me for all time

Maybe I really Should Go,

But what will fill this hole